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A raw spiritual memoir chronicling one woman's transformative quest for love, healing, and awakening across the globe.
Struggling with depression and questioning conventional life scripts, Annette Knopp leaves her fiancé and career in Spain at 29 to seek meaning—from ashrams in India to nightclubs in Japan, opal mines in the Australian outback to shamanic ceremonies in Peru. Her spiritual odyssey leads to profound awakenings and shattering betrayals, including sexual assault by a trusted mentor that plunges her into a crisis of faith.
With unflinching honesty, Annette illuminates both the pearls and perils of the spiritual path, exposing the pitfalls of guru culture while sharing hard-won wisdom about healing trauma and finding authentic wholeness. From the emotional barrenness of postwar German childhood to opening a retreat center in Costa Rica, this is an essential guide for anyone navigating the complexities of spiritual seeking in the modern world.